It Takes Awareness, Each Moment Of Every Thought And From Whence It Stems
I have always loved being near water and engaging in water-sport activities, so I was surprised to find out that I was afraid of high winds and sailing when my husband and I bought a 26-foot sailboat several years ago with another couple. The first time we went sailing together was a beautiful, windy day on San Diego Bay. When the boat tipped on its side, due to a strong gust of wind, I became fearful; but despite my fear, we continued to sail our boat about once a month for two years. Every time we sailed without our boat co-owners, I felt so out of control and fearful that I would try to tell my husband how to sail the boat—what to do and what not to do—which of course drove him nuts.
Being a student of past-life therapy, I knew that my fear was rooted in a past lifetime when something traumatic happened on a sailboat. However, my conscious-mind acknowledgment didn’t cause a change so I kept questing as to the source of my fear. One day after we had gone sailing, I took a nap and just prior to awakening, I had a psychic experience that was much more real than a dream. I “saw” myself in a past lifetime on a large sailboat that had capsized. I was drowning! I actually reexperienced feeling myself sinking underwater while I watched a few other people staying on the surface—they were not drowning like me. I felt totally deflated that I wasn’t able to survive, and I was extremely fearful of dying because I had no understanding of the continuity of life in that lifetime. These moments just before my death had caused the feelings of being out of control and being fearful of sailing in my present lifetime.
After this awareness, I didn’t have the strong pull to go sailing anymore. My husband and I decided that we would be open to giving up our half of ownership in the boat but didn’t know how to broach it with our boat co-owners. A few weeks later, we met them at the dock to do some cleaning of the boat and to go sailing. They casually mentioned that they had a friend who was interesting in owning the sailboat with them, and since we didn’t seem to be sailing that much anymore, would we mind? It worked out perfectly for us—we gladly gave up our ownership.
We did go sailing a few more times, but the fearful feelings that I had previously experienced were gone. Upon knowing and accepting the past-life cause of my fears, the cycle was over with the sailboat and so was the desire to go sailing. I am grateful to the Unarius Brothers for the help I received to have learned this lesson about myself.
—Tracey K